Sometimes it is hard to gauge recovery. I feel sort of blah. But maybe that’s because I’m just tired. But I can tell that things still haven’t stopped. I’ve had some temptations and random thoughts have popped up in my head. But this is the lot of life. Sometimes I think I want wild fireworks, or the next love of my life to walk through my door if I’ve been sober for any time.
So apparently even when I’m not thinking about it I’m thinking about it. But I am really liking being sober. Questions naturally pop up that aren’t that productive–”I don’t feel so different, so what is the difference?” But the difference is measurable if I could actually quantify the devestation that I felt.
I feel like I’m just kind of rambling just to write a post but at the same time I know this is a good exercise. I’m taking back the internet, redifining it for myself. I’m on the right path.
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