This blog will take you on the steps to my recovery and I hope that you can find some sense of help and brotherhood in the words I will provide.
With all of the amazing gifts women have to offer it is sad that the pornography industry is shamefully making sure that all we come away saying, “L-O-V-E is just another word we never learned to pronounce.”
I think it is imperative that we take action to destroy pornography from off the face of the earth. I know that it will never stop being produced but to fight it is not to join a losing battle. One day pornography will be burned from off the face of the world. And in the meantime wouldn’t it be nice to know you are fighting a fight so worth fighting.
We need pornography like we need another holocaust. Join with me and fight this thing! Rise up brethren!
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The date is Wed, June 9th. I wish I had more time to post but I’ve only a few minutes. I met with my new Bishop last night. He told me that the Lord has forgiven me because I’ve confessed and am not repeating my sins. He told me something profound, “I think the Lord forgives us right away. I think that sometimes we just need time to prove to ourselves that we have changed.”
I too need to prove to myself that I’ve changed. I came really close to Church disciplinary action. I lost my Temple recommend for a couple of months. And if I continue on the path that I am currently on I’ll get it back.
However, I’m about to go on a 6 month purge. I am going to be putting off most material items and that means I won’t be near a computer. And this starts on Monday. So I won’t be posting anymore on here after Monday, the 14th. So if I get any posts by that time, please be patient and I’ll get back to you.
I’m going to miss posting on here, but this purge will be worth it. I’m excited for the change. And maybe one day this site will actually do some good for some folks.
“O ye, my people, lift up your heads and be comforted; for behold, the time is at hand, or it is not far distant, when we shall no longer be in subjection to our enemies, notwithstanding out many strugglings, which have been in vain; yet I trust there remaineth an effectual struggle to be made. Therefore, lift up your heads, and rejoice, and put your trust in God, that God” (Mosiah 7:18-19) who has delivered me from the bitterest pill and bleakest land.
“Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled. They profess they know God; but in works they deny him, being abominable, and disobedient, and to every good work reprobate.” Titus 1:15-16
“The mind is a system of ideas, , each with the excitement it arouses , and with tendencies impulsive and inhibitive which usually check or reinforce one another.”–William James
Sometimes it is hard to gauge recovery. I feel sort of blah. But maybe that’s because I’m just tired. But I can tell that things still haven’t stopped. I’ve had some temptations and random thoughts have popped up in my head. But this is the lot of life. Sometimes I think I want wild fireworks, or the next love of my life to walk through my door if I’ve been sober for any time.
So apparently even when I’m not thinking about it I’m thinking about it. But I am really liking being sober. Questions naturally pop up that aren’t that productive–“I don’t feel so different, so what is the difference?” But the difference is measurable if I could actually quantify the devestation that I felt.
I feel like I’m just kind of rambling just to write a post but at the same time I know this is a good exercise. I’m taking back the internet, redifining it for myself. I’m on the right path.
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